Monday, August 1, 2011
Think this place has been stagnant long enough alrdy, time for a change of water =) Too many things are happening this year..bad things actually. Results, family, now even my back. Afraid that there might be even more coming up..whatever it is I guess the only option is to trust in Him, though its really getting tougher to do so. Been thinking if me being born is it really a blessed thing..that He has placed me here for a reason..Almost everything that I do, since young till now..is just wasting my parents' money & ppl's time..tuitions, medical fees, education. Nvr seem to excel in anything, even if I felt I did, it wld go back to square one sooner or later. I'm really longing for that fire to burn up in me again..the fire to do well no matter what, just lyk before. Friends have always been around, despite not having any really close ones, I'm really glad to have them around. Anw just sounding out what's on my mind, feeling slightly better now. Shall expect greater things to come.
8:50 PM
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Wow, it feels weird blogging again. Situation btwn mum & dad still hasn't improved yet despite trying to talk to mum abt this over dinner. Other family members have also began to learn abt this situation & some have tried talking to mum, but all agreed she needs time, as she herself also said so. She thinks my dad recent changes is too fast for her to accept & she can't forgive him just yet since she has been suffering for so long alrdy. Dad is trying to change and wants both of them to reconcile asap so as to move on & to spend the good times together agn. Going out together seems rather 'forced' since mum tries to ignore dad and she wld just cut off what dad is saying. Time may heal the hurt, but it cld also prolong the pain longer, hopefully time wld really do its miracles since I really dunno what else to do..mind's empty too. All the while I've seen situations like this only in drama shows..nvr did I expect it to occur right b4 me.
Sundown Marathon is on Sat, race pack was diappointing since it offered so much lesser than expected. Planing to join 42km in future if I really want to run agn. Its really more worth it. Anw still rather excited for the marathon, despite training much lesser compared to Nike Run's. Shall hope to clock within 2hrs if possible =p
11:38 AM
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Kim Min JiCan't believe she's born in 92 too
4:01 PM
Friday, April 8, 2011
Been eating quite alot the past 2 weeks, gosh. Aft lifegrp on Mon, we wld head to eat prata nearby, and it wld be abt 10 plus at night, which is like supper alrdy, hahs. Not been running too, since there's so many things that happen during the night, so can't make time for it. Been spending time with fellow BB seniors recently, really feel confortable with them, like they're my brothers. Went to play pool with them, and even celebrated YC's bday, just me, Sean, YC, Greg (The Bishan guys). Celebrated at YC's hse, b4 heading down to Greg's hse playground to chit chat. Shared so many things, mostly abt relationships, hahas. (P.S : All 3 of them are quite eager to find a partner, their age tells you that too, lol ) Touched some topics abt life, and lastly how to celebrate Sean's upcoming bday. Was my first time sharing abt my relationship side that I've been through, felt so much better aft that. But knw pondering if I shld cntnue or stop neglecting the person, since we got to forgive right? Shall see how. Anw mum & dad's situation are still the same, dad trying to open up alrdy, but I suppose mum finds it abit too abrupt and tries to ignore him. However, their attitude towards bro & I are still the same, so main thing now is abt them. New sem's going to begin real soon. Got to start adjusting back the body clock & start planning to make time to study evryday, to have the spirit of excellence!
3:31 PM
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Trip to Taiwan has been cancelled, sigh, kind of looking foward to it. It was also becos of it that made me stop finding for a job, since it wld be redundant to work for such a short period. Times are getting bad recently, had a series of clumsy accidents at home, first was toppling over the whole jug of water onto the stove area, then next was toppling over the food container for dinner, nearly half the food onto the floor. To sum up, the worst thing was Dad & Mum's soft quarreling. Why soft? Cause I suppose they do not want my bro & I to hear abt it..and they always discuss far away frm our rooms. But tdy I felt the quarreling worsened since Mum began to shout, and I ovrheard them talking abt the topic on divorcing. Mum had happened to talked this over with me 2 mths back while I went jogging with her. She said that she has been finding it difficult to live on with my Dad, and she has been thinking of leaving him for quite a long time alrdy..saying that he's changed. And tdy, she decided to spill it all out to Dad finally. I think bro hasn't been taking notice of these things yet since he's using earphones on the com these days. Really, really hope things wld not turn out ugly.
11:50 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Church of St John, Macedonia
Normandy, France (Looks like Disneyland)Last week was an enjoyable one, finally had another driving lesson aft a 2 week break. This Thurs n Fri wld be the last 2 lessons b4 the pract test. Last Thurs went out with lifegrp to have high tea at Zhou's kitchen, it was dim sum buffet, and it was really quite good. Headed bck to church with them to attend Fuel Prayer meeting, where there wld be praying for recent things and for the church. First time attending, and found it good. Then on Fri went out with the rest together with WH to celebrate Jer's belated bday. Ate at Everything With Fries, the food is not too bad. Sat headed to Ubin for adventure hike with the BB boys. Cycled arnd to head to different checkpoints. Weather wasn't tt good as it kept raining, each time getting heavier as it stopped & came back agn. Rode a 2 seater bike, since quite a number of juniors didn't knw how to ride bikes. First time also experiencing the most bike breakdowns in my life..abt 10 times or more as the chains frm the bikes kept causing probs to our grp. Luckily Chris was in the same team as me and were the 'mechanics' in the grp. Cycling in the rain was refreshing too, thgh troublesome. One funny thing is whenever I go Ubin with BB, it always rains, but when I go with frens, the weather always seems fine, haha.
Sun met up with lifegrp at airport to send Clarence off to Cambodia for his mission trip. This wld be his 2nd one and really glad that he's becoming more & more passionate. Been going out for supper with the BB seniors, Greg & YC, hahs. So far joined them for 2 times alrdy and thgh I'm not a 'supper person', its enjoyable to hang out with them. Trip to Taiwan maybe cancelled due to a lack of ppl joining the tour grp, still waiting for confirmation, but hoping that it wld not as I think it wld be a good time for the family to enjoy together aft the recent weeks of feeling my mum being depressed & my dad getting more unsociable.
12:16 PM
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Still amazed how critics cld give it such good reviews & the show itself winning many nominations. Was rather plain to me, but had funny moments, E.g 'A: "My past physicians encouraged me to smoke to relax the throat muscles."
B: "Then they must be dumb"
A: "They were knighted.."
B: "Ah...then they're official"
What B meant is that the physicians, aft being knighted, they are now known to be 'officially dumb', hahs. Well plus point is that I got to knw sme England history. Next movie: Rango!
Been quite a week, spent almost the whole week searching for jobs, been to a few interviews, but currently still back to square one. Can't believe I tried smth out of the norm tdy..saw an advert abt requesting for ppl to take bridal shoots, students welcomed, and I actually went for it. Found out it was lyk a model agency, they do adverts, runways, bridals, etc. Having a 2nd interview nxt wk, so shall find out abit more, lol. Been reading the book, "Sing to the Dawn". Its meant for young teens, but I guess I just wanted to read it aft hearing this title in the past. Quite a descriptive story, it actually got me imagining abt the scenes n picturing them out. Left with a few chaps more! Then time to move on to other books!
Things at home are getting abit shaky. Pa has been getting rather unsociable towards mum's family side, whch caused grandma to question abt his presence, since we used have dinner on Fri with her once every 2 wks, but he stopped joining us since last yr. Mum tried talking to him to find out the reasons, thght they got it settled last wk, but for dinner with grandma tdy, he decided not to come agn. Talking to him wld be tough since pa has nvr really shared anything to us b4 except to mum, and he has a short+bad temper. Aunt told me mum has been sharing her probs to her, and tt she's quite tired of it too, stress frm work, and now stress at home too. As the eldest, I feel the need to help her lighten the burden too, and I knw it shld start frm me, the old habits, etc shld be erased first. But I just can't seem to make them turn to good habits. Simple habits lyk sleeping early..I think this shall be the first habit I shall amend. Promised my young cousin of 9 yrs old, that I wld sleep earlier aft mum exposed that habit of mine to my aunt and she overheard it. Nxt wk shall be the start of that promise. By 12.30am lights out, and probably earlier if possible as it goes along. Hoping to see things make a turn for the better within the family in time.
12:46 AM
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